Mahathir was once a figure who I looked up to. His actions were the ones which I respected. “Perjuangan Belum Selesai” touched my soul. “Melayu Mudah Lupa” was my battle cry.
But now, watching his actions and listening to what he says today, I am no longer sure if those words which made him the “Hero of the Malays”, really came from his heart or if they were all just a part of his sickly, twisted game.
“Sesungguhnya tidak ada yang lebih menyayat hati
Dari melihat bangsaku dijajah
Tidak ada yang lebih menyedihkan
dari membiarkan bangsaku dihina
Air mata tiada ertinya
Sejarah silam tiada maknanya
Sekiranya bangsa tercinta terpinggir
Dipersenda dan dilupakan”– Tun Dr. Mahathir in Perjuangan Belum Selesai
Did he mean it when he wrote that it pierced his heart when the Malays were forced to bow down to the ‘penjajah’? That nothing was more heart-wrenching then seeing his own race being insulted?
That tears are worthless and history is meaningless if our own race, our own religion are being forgotten– being stepped on– being shunned?
Because if he did, how can he ever bear to be together with those people who, clearly from the emblems and the banners they hold up high, are discriminating and humiliating his own race and religion?
How can he support the illegal demonstration which is being led by the people he himself has labeled as ‘pengkhianat bangsa’?
Tun Mahathir himself has once said that the Malays who join the opposition’s illegal assemblies are greedy and selfish people– does this means that he is one too?
Were all of his past actions merely acts for his own political gain? Did any of his own words ever came from his heart? Are all the tears he shed for the country actually crocodile tears?
Looking at his actions now, I think we were fooled by his twisted, malicious game.
It is still very hard for me to accept the harsh reality. The man who is now spreading lies and false words about the government and supporting the enemies and the greedy monkeys is the same man that I used to respect.
I still want to believe that he is just being tricked, being fooled to support Bersih 4; but again, he is not a child who can be fooled easily.
How can he forget the people who had once threatened to ‘sweep out’ the Malays from our own land with giant brooms while chanting the words, “Melayu Sakai!” and “Melayu Balik Hutan!”?
He is no more a hero to me.
He is a hypocrite who acted against his own words.
He always said, “Melayu Mudah Lupa… “; now it looks like Mahathir Sudah Lupa…
Or does he thinks that since, “Melayu Mudah Lupa… “, he is free to do anything because soon, we’ll forget his bad deeds?